Qalbun Salim: Tawbah (Part 1)

So the magicians fell down prostrate.
They said: “We believe in the Rabb of Harun and Musa.”

(Fir’aun) said: “Believe you in him (Musa) before I give you permission?
Verily he is your chief who has taught you magic!
So I will surely cut off your hands and feet on opposite sides,
and I will surely crucify you on the trunks of date-palms,
and you shall surely know which of us (Fir’aun or the Rabb of Musa)
can give the severe and more lasting torment.”

They said: “We prefer you not over what have come to us of the clear signs
and to Him (Allah) Who created us. So decree whatever you desire to decree,
for you can only decree (regarding) this life of the world.”
[Ta-Ha 20 : 70-72]

The ayat of when the magicians bravely stood up against this evil tyrant Fir’aun always astonish me. Where did they find such strength in the face of a massive powerful figure, well known for his excessive cruelty towards everyone, and who will, without a doubt, cut off their limbs on opposite sides and then crucify them! What is the source of their fearlessness when just prior to this, they took Fir’aun as their god, as their everything when they swore:

“By the might of Fir’aun, it is we who will certainly win!”
[Ash-Shu’ara 26:44]

But not even with a hint of hesitation, the magicians replied:

“Verily! We have believed in our Rabb,
that He may forgive us our faults, and the magic to which you did compel us.
And Allah is better as regards reward in comparison to your reward,
and more lasting (as regard to punishment in comparison to your punishment).
[Ta-Ha 20: 73]

Their source of strength are these:
1) Iman – they have fully, wholeheartedly, without a single doubt, believe in Allah and everything that He has revealed.
2) Allah’s Forgiveness – there is absolutely nothing else that they hope for except that Allah forgives all of their sins.

The magicians know the value of Allah’s forgiveness, so much so, that they’re willing to let Fir’aun torture them in the most excruciating ways possible, as long as they remain in faith. These are people who understand the immense value of an accepted taubah. Someone who truly knows the value of Allah’s forgiveness would be willing to do anything and absolutely everything.

Now look at ourselves: we’re not being persecuted, we’re not being condemned to such degree of cruelty. But why is it so hard for us to give up our sins and bad habits? Why is it so hard to let go of the things that keep us away from Allah? We couldn’t even be bothered lowering our gaze from what is haram, and we couldn’t care less guarding our tongues from uttering what is impermissible.

My dear brothers and sisters in Islam, know that the forgiveness of Allah is not cheap, and know that it cannot be bought. Even if we own the whole planet and everything that it contains, and we have another planet of the same amount of richness – know that they will not be accepted as ransom on the Day of Judgment. [Az-Zumar 39:47]

Therefore, if we truly, desperately want Allah’s forgiveness, then be ready to abandon everything that will lead to His displeasure. Never feel tired or lazy in our search of Allah’s forgiveness. And never feel that we have done enough.